Wednesday, September 30, 2015

Diatomaceous Earth changed my life - Day 8 - Marriage Drama

Diatomaceous Earth = DE. Good morning.  So today I slept in a little longer because it is a late day for school for the kids.   I didn't sleep all the way through the night last night I woke up about 3 times to go pee.  But I'm still hopeful because 2 nights in 7 to sleep all night without waking is pretty good for me.   I mean that usually only happens once a year. That makes 3 times this year, a little sad but I'm just glad to be feeling better.  Yesterday I took 1/2 tsp 3 times because I really feel like when I take it I feel better afterwards.  And in preparation for today to up my dosage to 1tsp.  I don't seem to be getting the hot flashes anymore, I do get a light dizziness about an hour after I take it.   My skin is clearing up but I am having random breakouts too. To explain, my skin was covered with random black heads and small blemishes in a denser fashion. Now the skin between breakouts is very smooth and blemish free. So even though I am getting blemishes, which I think is the toxins leaving my body, the smaller blemishes are going away, Yay!

One thing I've noticed since I started this cleanse or whatever you want to call it, is that I am thinking clearer.  My husband thinks that I am just complaining more about our relationship. Suddenly things that I have put up with for a long time are bothering me. I mean I want to be treated considerately. I guess that means in his eyes I'm being more bitchy or sensitive.   And of course he takes everything so deeply personal as if everything is an attack on him. If he is doing a behavior  and I ask him to change his behavior that is a call out of his behavior right?  or am I wrong. So one particular thing that happens in our love life, I have pointed out that it isn't fair and it has been going on for nearly our entire relationship. He says, "Well divorce me then."  This year everytime I try to bring up anything or when I just want to get us having a dialog again he has come out with that pretty easily.  I would never say that so easily, you know.

Let me tell you about how this started.  A week and 1/2 ago after I had been on the ginger for a few days, it was Friday night and he just came home from work. We were sitting at the dinner table eating, and talking about going for a bike ride after dinner. Suddenly this guy, who is his 2nd cousin, and he hadn't talked to for awhile pulls up outside. My husband walks out and talks to him for a second. Then he comes in and says he is going to go with Domingo - that is the cousins name, for a little while to look at some work they need done on his brothers house.   He also says that Domingo is going to drive him. I say, "Why don't you drive your own car?"  He says, "Cause Domingo wants to talk about it on the way there."  We have been through this scenario a few times and I know that it means he will just disappear and not be home till late.  But I just let it go. During the time that he is gone until 11pm, no bike ride happened by the way,  I proceed to decide that I am sick and tired of being treated like that. Especially because in the few preceding months before this he seems to continually make plans to go work, or check out jobs, or help someone without any notice to me. Now I am sure in his mind, I'm sick all the time and it shouldn't matter. But I may be getting so upset about this because I am feeling better, and clearer and during the time I've been so very sick, I really don't have any friends to hang out with.

When he comes home at 11pm he was drunk, he rarely ever does that but yes he was drunk.  I was very mad.  I asked him to sleep on the couch and he refused.  I begged him to sleep on the couch and he refused again. I threw the pillow at him. He jumped up and grabbed my wrists and spoke to me in a very hateful way. Then he laid back down and apologized for being like that. I said his behavior was like he was cheating and I asked again if he would sleep on the couch, he started calling me "Freak, Freak, Freak, Freak" in a really verbally abusive way. We never carry on like this so it was very upsetting. I threw the remote at him. He jumped up and grabbed my wrists again and said something, which I can't recall I just remember the look in his eyes and the way he was sort of projecting an angry intensity at me. Then he laid down again. Finally, I went on the couch. About 20 minutes later he came out to apologize and I asked him to leave me alone.  I slept on the couch.  The next day he apologized multiple times.

We still haven't resolved this but I do love him and he feels he is trying hard to show me how much he loves me.   But in a way I've become even more sensitive about him being gone all the time. He thinks he is doing his best and I'm being overly sensitive.

I'm thinking maybe I'm just feeling better....

Break - I just saw a humming bird outside my window.  I wish I had my phone handy to take a photo. Here is a photo of my garden sans humming bird.
the little garden outside my office

So  after our discussion and him saying, "Divorce me."  I didn't sleep the best last night but mainly cause I had to go pee repeatedly. Lastnight he did tell me he didn't know why he keeps saying that. He just doesn't know what to say and feels hurt when I say things that sound like I'm not happy.

I woke up this morning and laid in bed looking at  Facebook. Bad I know. OMG have you seen this - Bad lip sync videos?  So funny -

Then I got up and again I feel like I really would enjoy going for a walk. But instead I took my pills, vitamins, and DE and came in  here to blog. But I think I'll get out there now.  It's still beautiful here in Portland Oregon.

I weighed myself 185.8 - up a little, waist 36.25 same.   I like the way my body feels though like its slimming down.

Tuesday, September 29, 2015

Diatomaceous Earth changed my life Day 7

Now I am up to date day 7 is today. I actually slept last night again. That is the 2nd time in a week where I slept all night without getting up. This rarely ever happens for me.  I felt so good when I woke up I actually started dancing. It felt good to breathe. I have this weird sensation where I want to stretch and move and laugh and I feel so happy.  I don't even know how to explain it but I am just feeling like I have my whole life before me. I was feeling doomed as if I was never getting better. I am so happy taking DE I think I need to up my dosage again.

I really feel like I'm going to get better.

I weighed myself I was 185.2, waist 36.25"

Diatomaceous Earth changed my life Day 6

This is what I posted on the facebook group Diatomaceous Earth Product

Ok, so I started taking DE just 5 full days ago. I started with 1/4 tsp morning and at night. I'm up to 1/2 tsp morning and at night. I have a long laundry list of illnesses including, history of stroke, pcos, hypertension, hypothyroidism, gerd, sleep apnea, bad breath (from the stomach not mouth), and smelly sweat, etc etc etc. It really goes on and on. 
Anyway the 2nd night of it I actually slept all the way through the night without getting up once. This never happens. I have been so sick for so long fatigue and pain, chronic illness. But when tested I always am within normal limits to not be an auto-immune disease, though it does feel like I have an auto-immune disease. Already in just these 5 days, my skin is clearing up, I'm sleeping better, I've lost 1" around my waist, and about 5 lbs, I stopped taking the pain pill tramadol for fatigue and weakness, though I've had so much more energy as if I had taken tramadol, my breath is getting better, my mood is better. I haven't really noticed any side effects, because you have to understand I was so very ill every day for the past few years that I have really looked at each day as whether I'm having a good day or a bad day - sort of how terminally ill people deal with their time. So for me since the DE is taking toxins out of my body at the same time as the Detox it balances out and I feel better than normal.
I've had about every type of test you can have to figure out what is wrong with me. I've even seen a Naturopath and that is when I really lost hope, because I had all my hope pinned on the naturopath and when I saw him he gave me some suggestions but he basically said my severe fatigue and aches and pains are a combined effect from all my illnesses and required medications. In order to not continue to have strokes I have to take aspirin, carvedilol, and amlodipine, and this combination is the only medications that have kept my blood pressure under control. These medicines have side effects. So the Naturopath told me take magnesium, probiotics, and fish oil, and try to eliminate eating red meats, and drink lots of water. I did this only saw a marginal improvement. That was in July I think, after that I became rather depressed because after a year of basically ONLY taking care of my family and trying to get better I was worse. But now after 5 days of taking DE, I feel hope again. I'm only 44, I still have a future ya know? I have more energy and vitality (without pain medicine) than I have had for a few years - after 5 days. I know I am going to get better. I just want to thank my friend laura, and this group because reading everyone's experiences is really important to me and really helped me see and feel that there is hope. Thank you.
EDIT: I forgot to say my ability to smell and taste are coming back, and my appetite is bigger which is weird when I am losing weight.

-- end of facebook post -

In the evening after I posted this about 3pm I started feeling pretty tired.  It was like my muscles are weak. I had to do some running aroudn for my daughter and got tuckered out but I didn't let it discourage me because I think it is the herx.  So once I noticed it I took a bath with Epsom salt and essential oil, and then rested. 

I also weighed myself Weight 185.8, waist 36.5", neck 13.5", hip 42.5"

Diatomaceous Earth changed my life Day 5

Day 5 was Sunday September 27, 2015.  I woke up happy and my husband made pancakes. I started noticing some things. I was beginning to taste food better. My breath was getting better. My body odor was better. My skin seems clearer. My mood was better. My energy level was better.  We took my niece and nephew to the hospital to visit their mom and then home to their house to clean. Was feeling good. Got a little tired about 5pm. I attributed that the Herxheimers reaction.  Research it. Very common when detoxing.

At the end of the day we went grocery shopping got some movies saw Home, and the Age of Adaline. I didn't care for Home but the Age of Adaline was pretty good. 

Diatomaceous Earth changed my life Day 4

Day 4 was Saturday September 26, 2015.   I woke up physically feeling good but emotionally I felt bad because again my husband was gone and we had been sort of arguing. I think because I am sick all the time that he has been trying to get away so he doesn't have to be home with me being ill.  But this day I was feeling good. I decided that since I was feeling good with 1/4 teaspoon I would increase my dosage to 1/2 teaspoon  twice daily. Ultimately you want to get up to 1 tablespoon twice a day for optimal results.

So I laid there in my bed completely awake feeling better than normal with nothing to do. After so long being sick I've distanced myself friend all friends and family that I would normally spend time with so it was weird I had energy and nothing to do. That made me feel a little bit sorry for myself.

Then something interesting happened. My eldest son came over to visit with me and we got to have a great conversation. He brought me a bike. He always brings me gifts. I am so lucky.

Then while I was talking to him, my 12-year-old daughter said her friend was having problems and wanted to come over to talk to me. So as I was finishing talking to my son and catching up, my daughters friend came over and I started talking to her. Then while I was talking to her my niece called and said that her mom was going to the hospital and her and her little brother wanted to come over. Turns out my sister in law had an appendicitis. So my son had left, I helped my daughters friend, and I picked up my niece and nephew.  My husband came home and we caught up on everything happening all at once.   We made dinner. I was in a fabulous mood, no more pain killers, still had energy and enthusiasm.  We played monopoly. We played PS3 Just dance, and we laughed and had fun.  I took my 2nd dosage.

It was a good day. I was feeling good till about 10pm and then I felt tired.

Diatomaceous Earth changed my life Day 3

This would have been Friday 9/25/2015 I remember I actually felt a little depressed because for the first time in a very long time I had energy and felt like doing something with  my family but they were all gone.

I woke up feeling great because I actually slept all night long. That is really weird for me.  I slept all night without getting up 2-5 times to pee.

I'm often too ill to do anything, and my husband was working on a project for his cousin. My smallest son 9 years, was at a sleepover at his friends, and my daughter went with her friends.  Then my husband came back and we went out for dinner. It was a nice evening and I felt calm and had a pleasant amount of energy.

The evening ended well and I felt good.

Diatomaceous Earth changed my life Day 2

Day 2 was September 24, 2015 Thursday.   I remember feeling a little more energy and I started having hot flashes with every dosage and a sort of buzz or hum feeling in my body.  I am  taking  Diatomaceous Earth Food grade and on  day 2 I took 1/4 tsp in the morning and 1/4 tsp at night.\

It's very inexpensive - Only $20 on their website and $22 on amazon for 10lbs. It has many many uses research it. I'm part of a group on Facebook called DIATOMACEOUS EARTH PRODUCT - it is a closed group but if you request to join the usually add you.

I felt like my mood was getting better. I stopped feeling cranky and my stamina lasted longer in the day. Usually by 3 pm if I don't take a Tramadol for fatigue I'm having to rest for the remainder of the day.

I weighed myself I was 188 lbs, Waist 37.5" neck 13.5"