but sometimes I feel like this -
Everything we planned for our lives for years has come about but now I want to get back to enjoying it.
We planned to to sell our house and move to Mexico and buy a house and fix it up and if we decided to stay great if not we'd come back, maybe we'd make money or maybe we'd be poor. If we were poor I could surely go to college because I would be low income not having worked for a few years. After a few years we'd be eligible for a first time home buyer program again.
So all that has happened - wanna hear the next part of the plan? We are going to be rich and have lots of homes and vacations. It would be so funny if that actually happens. I am just supposed to be ridiculously successful and fully express my true art.
Well anyway, so much for my ridiculous complaints. Next week when we move into the house I hope everything will be wonderful again. There is a nice yard, double garage, 3 bedrooms, 1 1/2 bath. A much larger kitchen with a DISHWASHER!!! Which we do not have now.
And Maybe I can start painting again and making films because of the love of the art form.
I still have a few projects to finish. I'm thinking now my career will be as editor so my life in front of a computer is sealed to me now but I'm not sure I can be on set because my back just can't take it so it must be the best bet for me.
Well that is all for now sorry if my problems are stupid I've just been feeling like I need to get my head straight. Like - why am I not happy... ? I've been happier when I was a stay at home mom clipping coupons and taking care of my husband.
PuertoVallartaGirl in Portland