Saturday, December 29, 2012

My First Feature film is underway

It is about the Near Death Experience check it out -

Friday, December 14, 2012

Maybe there is a message in all this tragedy?

Parents, Future Parents, Grand Parents and community members. A few weeks ago my son’s friend a 20 year old bright youth attempted suicide by jumping off a bridge into oncoming freeway traffic, and this week there has been both the tragedy of the shooting at our local mall as well as the horrifying shooting of today at a school - which honestly is completely beyond my comprehension. I just cannot wrap my mind around it. All 3 incidents involve young men. Perhaps there is some type of message in this that we must acknowledge? We need to connect with our children, I mean really connect. We are all so busy in our hectic lives chasing the dream or just surviving, but we must take some time to check in with our children make sure they have hope. We must assure them that it gets better. Remind them of struggles we over came at the same age. Maybe if we all practiced patience and random acts of kindness. Who knows maybe we might just help someone who is on the edge.

Thursday, December 13, 2012

Car Crash Dream


I'm working on this documentary about the Near Death Experience. Specifically about the process people who have Near Death Experiencer's go through afterwards.

Needles to say with my health declining and my focus on what happens when you die I had an AMAZING dream last week.

I wasn't me, I was someone else, speeding in a White Camaro, and I slammed into a brick wall. Immediately I felt a pop and I was floating outside of the car. No pain.

It was so vivid and I woke up wondering if that really just happened to someone. Since that day I've been wanting to describe the sensation. I think it sort of felt like being born. Like if I could remember what it feels like being born is like.  Being squished in and squeezing through a hole and popping out. Like a genie in a bottle.

I've been having sensations or memories of my Grandmothers lately. It had been awhile since I had thought about them. What keeps happening is when I'm lying in bed at night about to go to sleep I sense what it was like to be around them or as if they are near me.  I keep wondering where is my dad?  I haven't had a dream or feeling about him for quite awhile and then I was driving downtown and this song came on the radio. I started having memories about my dad flood into my mind, and then I heard the lyrics. "My Father said Don't you worry child, Heaven has a plan for you."  I really felt like that was him.

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Still on the search to figure out my fatigue - I may have found it?!

I haven't been feeling well lately and I have been on a search to figure it out. When I developed several health problems in Mexico every one kept telling me that it is just heredity or that it is all in my head.   That sounds like bullshit to me.

I've made several changes to my lifestyle. I stopped brushing my teeth with fluoride toothpaste, I've stopped using products with sulfates in them on my skin because of strange rash I had on my shoulders since I came back to the US.  I brush my teeth with Tom's of Main fluoride free toothpaste and wash my face and skin with baking soda, and I wash my hair with baking soda and found 1 organic conditioner that doesn't contain sulfates. I consume a cap of Bragg's vinegar a few times a week.  I also bought organic coconut oil for my skin and cooking, but I haven't implemented that. I got tired of the coconut smell quite quickly.  The result with these changes, because of the vinegar I don't have to take omeprazol for Gerd anymore. Because of washing my face and body with baking soda my skin is the clearest it has ever been. The Toms of Maine toothpaste works fine but I don't get the refreshing minty taste in my mouth when I brush. But with all of those changes starting between 2 and 4 months ago. I am still very fatigued perhaps even worse than before. Of course that makes me wonder if it has something to do with the changes I've made. But how could it when my skin is so much better? I've had many blood tests done by my doctor but all the results come back within normal limits.

After searching and searching fatigue, ears ringing, and a few other symptoms I've returned with the illness of "Adrenal Fatigue" on several occasions.  Then, last week I started reading this website. http://www.drlam.com/articles/adrenalfatiguevshypothyroidism.asp.  I ended up buying a different book, not only because of the less expensive price but it seems like there are more recommendations for the following book on Amazon called "Adrenal Fatigue, The 21st Century Stress Syndrome"  by James L. Wilson, N.D. D.C. Ph. D here is a link to it   Adrenal Fatigue - on Amazon.

I've only just began reading it but so far other than a few symptoms that I don't have, everything else seems like they are talking about me. In Chapter 4 it talks about the type of jobs that are prone to Adrenal Fatigue. It starts with doctors who start ignoring their body's needs in college, and medical school. Next it talks about police who are continually changing shifts, and any job that continually changes shifts and never has a chance to properly acclimate. Then it talks about what he  refers to as "Sandwich stress jobs" and surprisingly enough lists "middle executive, secretaries, and teachers"  That's me.  Jobs where you see problems and can't control your circumstances, they never get the glory, and always get the blame. I never thought of it that way, but I guess it does give you a unique type of stress. I'm also reading all the other types of situations that lead to Adrenal Fatigue.

The good news, you may feel like your dying but you CAN get better. Yay!

 I think there is hope for me.

PuertoVallartaGirl in Portland