Sunday, July 1, 2012

Inspired by Karise Eden - thinking about my path

What if everything we chase doesn't matter and all we are meant to do is to be kind to one another?

I've had a few bad weeks at work. Just not feeling quite right about things.  Is it me projecting?  Who knows.  Today I saw this video and it really inspired me:

Her voice reminds me of Janice Joplin.  I'm no expert on music but sometimes a movie, a voice, or a piece of art moves you to act yourself. That is what I want to do with my art, inspire.

Career is a very complicated issue. You have to be very careful the decisions you make. You don't want to get pigeon holed into something, but at the same time you need an avenue to help you get to your direction. It is so easy to get side-tracked. I keep doing that in my life.

When I was 20 I went to college to compose music. I got pregnant first term in and had to quit, for a variety of reasons.

Later I stuck with my secretarial career working my way up and up but finally had the courage to step away from the corporate grind when my 2nd husband offered me the option of staying home with my children. I took it. And a few years later we even went a step farther to step away from our 5 bedroom home and pretty cushy American Lifestyle to move international to Mexico. I wouldn't trade any of these experiences they give me a wealth of knowledge.

I'm glad we had the courage to not live the life of someone who feels stuck.

I am now 41, a senior in Art College, an entry level employee at a major television network... and I know... if I focus and believe I can achieve what I aim for. 

The hardest part is making a trade off.  Being career driven can make you lose site of what is important. 

One thing I have always noticed in all the years I've worked outside the home which is about 21, 18 in Administrative work of one kind or another. Is that it takes about 2 months to see the true colors of who you are working with directly.  When I came to my current job my boss was exceptional and amazingly enough even after 2 months he was still exceptional. But now my job has shifted again, funny but about 2 months ago. I now report to multiple people rather than just my one awesome boss. And things are not going as well. And it is making me really see exactly what I want to do. 

I want to create art that inspires.  I've never not wanted to do that. But I always come back to the same thing every time I start heading down a road.  

I'm learning the ropes, bit by bit.  I know about business. I know about project management.  Customer Relations.  I'm learning all sorts of industry jargon.  I'm learning who to trust and who not to trust.  And I'm also learning that at the end of the day all the really matters is your family and who you are with.   

That is what working a career will do, it will take you out of the real world of your family and truly valuing people and make you in the artificial world that work creates. But here is the thing, they go hand in hand.  We must learn to be kind and have integrity to the people at work.  You really start to see who does not do that. They say people are like oranges and you can see what they are made of when you squeeze them. 

When life holds you down do you stay kind?