Thursday, March 19, 2009

I had an epiphany

Originally written March 16, 2009

Today I had an epiphany. My reason to go to Albaro De Obregon. You see I've been sort of stuck and I think it is because I haven't been clear about what I want. And then it dawned on me. The people are so focused on suffering in E's town that I can go there and try to uplift them. My spanish is getting better and better everyday.

Maybe my purpose is to uplift people. ....?>......

We get so lost somtimes. And I realized just now that when I feel the most wonderful is when I feel uplifting. This happens when I am in my spirituality zone and I have daily contact with people who I uplift.

I want to be that person. The person who embraces every person I meet. Not always physically but mentally and/or emotionally.

In nearly all of my former employments I have been told that I have an ability to lift the spirit of a group just with my presence.

I need to focus on this and cultivate it. Because when my life is like that, I am truly in bliss and I feel like I am making a difference. Weird huh. Just by being nice with people and joking with people, I get a sense of purpose...

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

If god wants it.

I have ton's of moody and deep blogs I've hand written but for now until I get my computer working and interent service again I will not be posting much, because I just don't have enough of time to do it.

Here are some updates:
-house may be sold, buyers to bring downpayment tonight
-we plan to go to morelia, build a little house there on our property
- go to immigration appointment coming up in the next 2 months
- go to waiver appointment
- go back to portland.

si dios quiere.

This is a big saying in Mexico and some people say it constantly.

si dios quiere

for those of you non spanish speakers it means
"if god wants it to happen."

I've been fighting the temptation to be negative.

Keep hearing and having these negative messages floating through my head. Don't count your chickens until they are hatched. When it rains it pours.

all that crap.

I prefer to look at the silver lining so to say.

Maybe we got screwed on our telcel bill. But they did lower the monthly rate and grandfathered it back, so in the future we will have a lower rate. That's good.


lots of stuff.

maybe we were scraping by but we have a nice house and my flowers are so beautiful right now.

If jimi didn't break my digital camera I'd show you.

Though we don't have cable now, I have learned so much spanish by watching the normal spanish TV. When I had cable I only watched English speaking shows.

What else.

I have been humbled, definitely humbled.

Thank you god for this lesson. And I pray for happiness for everyone.

Love you guys,

Hope to be back on blogging and writing soon.

Puerto Vallarta Girl